We should let go

Life gets crazy sometimes

One day after my birthday, i'm feeling old and konky. Maybe, i'm too young to feel old. Such a big and ugly word, 'old'. But, still, i finally understood the feeling of growing up and maturing. In the past, i will be happy to grow up, thinking i'll finally get the freedom to purchase the things i want, i'll finally be able to go out and shop, thinking i'll finally be able to play and have fun. Reality is harsh isn't it? Look at me now, where do i find the time to go out and have fun everyday? I'm having stacks of uncompleted work and projects with deadlines nearing every single second. Maybe i do have the freedom of getting stuffs on my own, but money is a problem too isn't it? You weren't always rich, and if you're not rich, how can you buy things? Besides, i miss the time where i can just go home and bathe and start playing with my dolls. No homework and no projects with deadlines. No extra tuition to ensure that i do well in my studies. No competitive classmates that gets angry at you for scoring better than them. Life was so much easier when i was younger, i wonder how much tougher life could get in the future? And i'm sure i'm definitely not interested in knowing my future for now.

I'm still currently stuck at Iris's house. Just cleared all my homework (Y) Still have a whole lot of projects undone and uncleared with the deadline just tomorrow. I hope we'll successfully survive through this together. And thanks Iris Rouying for my birthday present!! I love it a lot alright, i'll really miss you both when we change classes next year. I'm already dreading to know that i'll be separated from the clique. Who will i meet in my new class? Bimbos? Another new clique? Nah, i won't want to know the fact that i might not have any new and close friends at all. It's exactly how i discouraged Anna from transferring school! Bad bad choice you know. Like you won't know who you might meet in the new school, okay apparently you know a lot of people in Geylang Methodist, but still, you might not know who will start spreading bad rumors about you again. And then your bad experience will have to start all over again, that's bad you know. At least you got a bunch of close friends that you are sure that will never leave you again. So just stick through your secondary life with them, you'll get out of this successfully! (-:

Rightright, tomorrow's a new term (hate it) , and i will get to change seats!! It's either Iris or Chanel. We'll see, for now, ciao.